Thursday, October 11, 2007
its over...atleast i want it to be over....
wow..
exams are over but im not feeling too good about it...believe me....
i think that my results are gonna be disastrous...
i mean i really did study...believe me..
i have my bulging eyebags to prove it!!!
talk about waking up at 2.30 in the morning and taking a bath just to stay awake..
not pleasant at all.
but wtf..no more exems for this year..
just struggling to be optimistic about the results..
anyway..just went to arvin's house just now..
talk about being out of place..
didnt enjoy it all...
but i did get to humour myself when i fell down in front of my friends...
god..it hurts...
its a good thing i know how to make fun of myself now a days..
not unlike last time where i would have been so embarrassed...
anyway..im just sick of changes you know?
i have been going through changes a lot especially now..
god...im starting to hate myself.
i dont know whats happening to me...
seriously speaking...as a little girl i never dared to do anything that i know its wrong..
its a if i know the boundaries of my actions that i never dared to step towards it all.
even my classmates call me a goody shoes....
and when it comes to friends...im just so vain about it...
i always believed that i can be friends with someone forever and that everyone that i thought was my friend is really my friend..
and then as a freshmen student in high school..i encountered "plastics","backstabbers" and all sorts of people..
and then being naive was out of my dictionary...
i mean i still do make mistakes on choosing friends,but for now i think that the people i call my friends are really are my friends...
and now i noticed a lot of changes in me..
i admit that im kinda plastic now a days..
im being very possesive of...um..people that i have no right to be possesive of....
its just so horrible..
i dont like this changes...
i mean i used to be quiet but now its as if i lost my poise..
i just hope that the changes will come to an end,but i know it impossible...
for now....all i can do is just to go with the flow and dream of a happy ending thats never gonna come true.....
Labels: changes, lessons learnt, life
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