Friday, August 29, 2008
A LONG ONE(you have been warned)
ok so...i read through my previous posts(I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO)... when i blog, i wonder y i do it, besides the fact that my friends wants to know wats going on wid me... well, today i got my answer!! HALLE-LUJAH!! HALLELU-JAH!!! HALLELUJAH!!!(LOL) and the reason is....*drum roll** to remind me of the things i've gone through and that there are challenges once in a while but things work out just fine in the end..just gotta have faith...(easier said than done)...so y keep a blog?? y not a diary?? well, lets just say that i prefer to "share" the story of my life rather than have bitches do it.... and the worst thing they do.... they change the story line!!! wth!!! hehehehehehe... OOOOHHHHHHHMMMM!!!!(tries to relax)... yeah..well... soo...yeah i read... its so freakin sad that the "friends" i
had was no longer my friends... we drifted apart... heh.. so much can happen in such a short tym... i had my own faults... but maybe, things are just meant to happen.... besides... they said that some things need to fall apart to be whole again.. to be ok...
(oh! the high school drama!!!)..yeah well.. friends come and go.... people always leave-one way or another... damn goodbyes!!!! ahhh!!! i hope no more goodbyes!!! but its so friggin impossible such that it so freakin annoys me to the very core!!!!!! its so tiring... you know, saying hi is the most devastating thing for me ryt now... u know y?? coz, hi(s) always end with goodbye(s)!! y is it even called a goodbye???? bye is not good!! its sad!!!(a mystery of the english language)... yeah so..well..got some new people in my life...some im just too scared to trust(but i do trust), some im too scared to get too attached with( but i already am)... trying not to screw things.... i dont need a fucked up life...life can be such a bitch...(just like me...lol)...but seriously....im getting so tired sometimes... too tired to trust, to have faith, to live, to care, to try....and the saddest thing.... to love... gaaahh!!! i hate love!! love hurts!! im head over heels!! the worst thing that can happen is for him to think that he is the guy i have fallen for in my pathetic life.....!!!!! so unfair!! well nothing is ever fair isnt it?? but they do say everything is fair in love and war...or something like it!! i wanna trust him... i wanna believe him completly-but i just have doubts... oh friging doubts!! i hate doubts!!!!y r we going to school?? school doesnt teach us wat to do in the real life!! like if u got heartbroken..damn science cant explain love... well they said teens inlove are crazy!!! (crazy inlove i say!!!)or wen ur life is screwed up!! wen ur life is screwed up..they advice u to study and get a freakin job!!! for wat?? for money!! for freakin money!! money is good...u know..i love money.. but money cant buy happiness... well it can like wen i buy new stuff and chocs...im happy...but still!! not all happiness!! the more important happiness like a happy ending! freaker!
i still cant accept the fact that there are no such things as happy endings...im tired... i outie...ta-ta!!!( u r so happy i finished blogging... lol)
~i love maths(not!), maths loves me(not), i passed my maths(i wish)~
I LOVE YOU 8/29/2008 06:04:00 PM